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Christmas & Baby Jesus

I was asked a question by someone that believed in the Christian based baby Jesus we'll call him. "Well Luke, you think others are close minded. Doesn't that make you close minded to not believe in something in which you cannot see?" Faith is it? No, I am not close minded because I do not believe in your baby Jesus or god in which I cannot see. Isn't it more close minded to believe in one person that you can't see, and call it the only answer? I believe there are things I can't see in which can't even be fathomed or dreamt about by the human mind. I believe there's many things out there. However, I do not presume to logically know what the fuck that is. I can't see it, so sorry if I can't explain it. I do not need to cling or believe in something grand and invisible, so I can feel better about living and dying. Especially if that something is unseen and rules out all possibilities of anything else, and strips away the rights of human nature, and calls it a sin. I am very open minded, with the belief of endless possibilities.

"Well, if you don't believe in Christianity, why do you celebrate Christmas?" Wow, heres a hard one. Tradition. Once upon a time a boy named Luke was raised to believe that there only was one possibility of an invisible god, and to renounce his name was to burn in the hottest of fires. On this great day of our baby Jesus, we are not to forget that it is not about the presents, or even the giving, but the acknowledgment of the baby Jesus birthday. As Luke got older he soon opened his eyes and he began to grow. He saw that his beliefs did not fit that in which Christmas entails as far as the baby Jesus goes. He thought that possibly baby Jesus was a great philosopher, and perhaps resembled that in which would entail the life of Buddha. Could he know for sure? Probably not, but it seems more logical than 800 year old men, talking bushes, giants that get their ass kicked with a modified slingshot, and a fucking wizard that can part water. But, what if it was all true? Well, sorry folks, Luke needed a little more than a 2000 year old book to show him this. A book filled with everything natural seeming to be a sin, and with stories better than Dr Seuss's animated creations.

So Luke thought to himself. I like Christmas because it's tradition, and yes, that is what it's all about presents and giving to others. Taking out the part of religion itself, and there you have it. Did you know if you rearrange the word SANTA you can spell SATAN. Coincidence? I think not... MUHAHAHAH MUHAHAHA ::Dr. Evil style:: I like the Santa part to, which may stem from religion, but I don't view it in such ways. The thought of the story probably stemming from a tribe in a far off land on some peyote journey could easily conjure the visions of some 300 pound guy in a sleigh with reindeer pulling him along through the air.

If I was Santa my first stop would be over the White House as I called off the reindeers names to lose control of their bowels, with just enough head on speed to hit the presidents bedroom window with a few grain enriched brown marbles. My next stop would be over area 51 after I spray painted my sleigh silver, and put giant large eyed alien masks on my reindeer and me. Then I would pull Michael Jacksons head from my bag and drop it at the guard shack yelling "Identify this mutha fuckers" all said in a Mr. T voice. What the hell was that all about? Anyway, I like the little story of the fat fucker in a red suit and reindeer with one having a glowing red nipple on his snout to guide him.

Hell On Wheels

So tomorrow I am off on my trip to Hell, Michigan. My parental unit was calling around for cheaper hotel rooms for me, and she was talking to this hotel clerk guy who told her about a bar called the Hell's Creek bar, and I am wondering if it's the same bar as the Dam Site Inn. Possibly it's called two different things, but I am thinking there's 2 bars. Anyway, the guy was blabbing about it being a bar that can carry a lot of different people. Hell Angels even. So if I don't make it back I guess I was stabbed by motorcycle gangs. It doesn't seem unlikely that there would be Hell's Angels at a bar in a town called Hell. It seems real enough. I'm sure there's not so many towns called Hell around. It's going to suck if I am getting drunk in Hell and I have some old Hell's Angel guy trying to talk to me as he spits with every word. What can I do? Hand him a minty breath strip from my health food store?

A stunt like that could wind me in trouble, so I need to look at the possibilities of his reaction.

1. He grabs my head before I can take another breath and bites my ear off with the 6 teeth left in his tobacco stained mouth.

2. He takes the breath strip and starts cutting it up into pieces, and says "God damn boy, these hits of acid sure are bigger than back in the 70's."

3. He gets offended and his friends gather around to make me dance on the bar like Pee Wee Herman to the song Tequila, except he doesn't give me a bike to ride away with in the end, but instead I am forced face first into the floor, and I hear him take an evil voice stating... "The Devil's gonna make a friend of you boy."

4. He gets offended and reaches for his "whip?" and just as he's about to crack it on my eyeball, Siegfreid and Roy's out of control 600 pound white tiger rips through the entrance door and goes right for the jugular in a vivid flashback to the tortures of circus like tricks brought on my magic wands and whip cracking sounds. I then ride away on the tigers back in a drunken state, claiming I am the Beastmaster as I exit.

5. He takes the breathstrip kindly and enjoys it so much that he calls over Lulu and says I can have at her, even know her uterus is about to fall out do to so much daily abuse from his biker gang of 150.

6. There is no 6, but I figured if I could get the number 6 in this line three times, that it would be fitting for the town in which I will travel to. - Return to the top

Sigfreid And Roy

It is hard for me to feel sorry I guess for someone in the case of this magician. It was no big surprise to me, that something like this could happen. Animal rights activists must be having a field day with this one. Ya, I know, it was the thrill and talent to be able to control these large animals. They put themselves on the line to have this hobby, and ability to please the people with amazing shows. To bring the adults to their feet, and smiles to the children. That's right we must please the people. If humanity wasn't pleased then what would we all do? We would continue to poke a stick in the face of a 600 pound cat until it jumped around to please them, that's what we would do, and then maybe, just maybe the cat will get sick of that magic wand and bite your fucking head off.

A new MasterCard commercial....

Tickets to Siegfried and Roy..... 20$


Popcorn..... 4$


Magic Wand..... 15$


Thinking you can get away with making 600 pound cats do tricks for over 20 years, without getting your throat ripped out...... priceless

Theres some places thinking can't get you, for everything else theres stupidity.

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Tangents and Nugents

So I just get done watching Surviving Nugent on VH1. Why is it on all these reality shows, they try to pick people of all cultures and lifestyles? You have the whites, the blacks, the models, the gays, and so on, yet in all this attempt, they all seem exactly the same from one show to the next. The screening on these people are horrible. I would like to see people actually taken random to the point of knocking on a door and saying "Hey ya want to be on this show?" That to me would be far greater, but who the hell gives a shit what I think.

"It keeps it interesting to have each person as a different race or sexuality."

Guess what!!! NOT ANYMORE because that's all it is. I want true random people. I don't care if its 10 mechanics named Bob. If it turns out to be 50 bull dykes and 1 cross-dressing transgendered "thing" that doesn't know if it wants to keep its penis or tits, than that's what will be playing on my show. The thought of half a dozen lipstick lesbians may surely please most barbaric chauvinist fucks at times, but certainly we cant all get what we want and hope each door we knock on will show us the light to the spread legs of 8 virgin like vaginas, that have long sensual hair on their heads, clothed in the most cleavage popping vinyl suits, and that just happen to want "this one" man for a night of all you can eat carpet. Given your heterosexual. Which I am, so I am not going to elaborate for the gay community to make this entry fair for them.- Return to the top

Seniors Citizens Shitting Their Pants

So anyway, I wake up and blah blah go to work. I will fast forward to the end where I was fronting the store shelves, and I look over, and this old lady wanders to the back of the store, not even seeing me, she's about 15 feet away and it happened. She shit her pants. The wettest, sloppiest sounding fart exploded from her ass. LOLLLLLLLL I'm almost in tears from laughter thinking about it. I never wanted to explode laughing, yet vomit at the same time. I think I could have actually laughed and had chunks flying out of my mouth at the same time. I don't really even care about farts, hell my friends and I use to burn them. It was just this one time where it was evil, like for real I thought she sprayed herself. Time for her to change the depends Bob, she had some wicked explosive shits. I don't know if she shit, but it sounded like it.- Return to the top

Corporate Jones

Ya ya, power outage big deal, don't care. Why? Because I will get to fucking hear about it for probably the next 3.5 years. Then the government will try to find out the almighty question WHY, and they will come up with some fucking answer to please the public, yes yes don't be alarmed they have it under control. That's right I don't care. Ewwwwwwww "If it was your power you would care." Yup and its not so shut up. Hey wait... I do care. Now maybe those mother fuckers in wall street or those bitches that charge 15-20 dollars for a CD, can see theres more important things in life than skyscrapers. WHohooooooo, fuck it up mother nature I'm on your side. Time to open some eyes, we are specs, only superior at killing what is real in the world. Well, single me out of that, because theres no way I rank among the majority of shit that walks the earth. "Your no better than anyone else." The fuck I'm not. That's right Bob, hold down Corporate Jones, spread his legs apart a little further, I want to make sure this running kick makes his balls slam into the bottom of his chin. YA MR. JONES NOT SO HUNGRY FOR THE BOWL OF FUCKIN WHEATIES NOW ARE YA.- Return to the top

Bad Drivers

Ahhh the tranquility of light classical music. Sometimes I feel like I could die and hear this music as I walk through halls of different colored marble to my next journey.......... through fields of never-ending wildflowers, into a forest filled with green.... and just as I get into the middle of the beautiful forest I open my eyes and I am LOOKING AT THE BACK OF A FUCKING SEMI DOING 45 IN A 70, SMELLING HIS FUMES, GETTING RUN OFF THE ROAD BY OLD PEOPLE THAT WEAR DARK TINTED SKI GOGGLES WHILE DRIVING THE LARGEST CAR ON THE MARKET WHEN THEY SHOULD BE LOCKED UP IN THEIR HOME WORRYING ABOUT WHEN THE NEXT TIME THEY WILL HAVE TO CALL THE IN HOME DOCTOR TO CHANGE THEIR SHIT FILLED PANTS, AND DEALING WITH THE REST OF THE 5 O'CLOCK TRAFFIC. Ahhhhhhhhhh but it was good at the beginning. ::Runs to the hills::: Where they are untouched, we'll say Scotland, and build a small rock house, have a couple horses, and a small little spring that pops up just outside the homestead. I think this rambling has gone far enough. If I get to descriptive I am afraid this novel of obnoxious babble would go on forever. Someone entertain me.- Return to the top

Movie Writers

I watched some and the end of The Highlander "End Game". Oh how not good it was compared to the first one. The first highlander was so good, and the second one was good to. Then they got so corny, and PG-13 like. I will say for an actor that you don't see in anything big, Christopher Lambert fit that part so good for some reason. I could not imagine anyone else for that part. I also thought it should have been Duncan that got his head chopped off, it just wasn't justice to have some television spin-off guy get into a movie like the Highlander and have him be the final victor. That's right Bob, you hold the writers down, I'm bringing the axe. Well, this seems to be what usually happens to some movies. They are good then the writers get retarded, make them corny, and lower the violence, sex, and ratings so the younger kids can go. I hope those writers that sit in their big executive offices, up in those big buildings, spill their coffee, accidentally slip on it, trip over the leg of their desk, flailing into a cartwheel, headfirst into the giant glass picture window, smash through it, and fall to their death 50 stories, slamming onto the top of a crane head first because there happens to be construction going on, and landing with full body spinning force onto the busted up concrete right in front of an unloading bus full of nuns which were being escorted to court because they had just been caught pocketing church money for their camera shoots of their new Bukkake video being released on the black market. If you don't know what bukkake is, type it in a search engine. Sorry I went off the handle, I was just on such a role, I wanted to make a story out of it, and I could have gone on for much longer.
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Seatbelt Laws

I was driving down the road one day doing about 110, and I said hey Bob take the wheel I feel like head-butting a mailbox at a high rate of speed. ...... BOB... wake the fuck up. So then Bob finally wakes up and grabs the wheel, I roll down the window and he goes to the on coming traffic lane and then the shoulder. I plop my head out and SLAMMMMMMMMMMM!!! I took the son of a bitch clean off. It was so fast and such a shock to my skull, everything from the neck up went numb for a minute and then back to normal. So then Bob doesn't move back to the lane in time, and we slam head on into a car. I shoot through the windshield and blast over the hood of the oncoming car, and right through their windshield, and kill the driver. You see Bob stayed in the car because he was wearing a seatbelt. I wasn't. Then I say to myself. THISSSSSSSSSS is why we have seatbelt laws. Surely not because they like to make 50-100 dollars a pop for pulling over people when they don't use them. But all for the sole reason of that just in case situation where you may go through a windshield and kill the person in the other car with your airborne body. Even though you would have more of a chance getting hit by lightning, attacked by a shark, molested by a preacher.... well never-mind that last one, that happens all the time..., having an orgy with a full convent, winning the lottery, masturbating to the point where you could blow a hole through 3 pieces of construction paper at once all in one day. The moral of the story is, sometimes lame laws piss me off because at times they can be nothing more than money to the bastards that set them. If someone wants to have their face caved in by a steering wheel that's their choice. Damnit Bob, get that politician out of my trunk, he's starting to smell. - Return to the top

Cliff Dive

Anyway, I also grilled with the family. I had this free range bison steak, tuna fillet, and a free range moo moo burger and grilled veggies. That was like over 100 grams of protein in one meal. Insane. The bison steak almost made me orgasm, and well I am listening to this classical music, and thinking that it would go well with a bison steak. Why? I don't know. I think maybe because if I was on the balcony of a 20 story building, and about to attempt suicide I would be eating a bison steak with a shot of late harvest German wine, a shot of cranberry juice, unfiltered apple juice, pineapple juice, (all separate shots of course, I need the many tastes before I go) and also a shot of spring water from a clean source with some added angstrom sized minerals. Then I think I would have a nice small yet fulfilling salad with a tad of many veggies, and I cant forget to polish it off with a whole box of country choice organic chocolate chip and oatmeal cookies that are so soft its almost as good as eating cookie dough LOL I almost left doe. Like I am going to put a female deer in a fucking blender and give my cookie the taste road kill WHOWHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

So anyway I do all this and then come to the edge of the balcony, no wait. I am at the edge of a giant cliff, well lets say the Grand Canyon. Desolate, and empty of all its tourists due to the nuclear holocaust that I somehow survived unscard. I step to the edge with such gentle classical music that I have playing as I peer out into what will be my last flight in this life. I close my eyes and the tears stream down my face from the beautiful thoughts of a world that once was, but will never be again. Only to open them to this giant void that begs to swallow me in the greatest of movie climaxes. Just as I am about to leap , I stumble and think to myself. "This cant be." "How can I let this happen." "The single most important thing to do before I leave this life."...... Then you realize, you forgot to jerk off one last time. So I turn back to my truck and open 30 porn magazines all to their greatest pages, so its just one giant collage of the most intense pictures you could see. The mere site tells you, one touch baby and its going. Fuck old faithful. You are liable to create a pole shift with this orgasm.

After it is all said and done, and I finally do my last acts and requests, I turn to slip off the edge of the earth, into its awaiting mouth. My body into slow motion, as if I were floating, and the world wanted to take in this choice I have made into entirety to the point of slowing time. Arms pushed all the way out, legs together. Christ had thoughts of making and appearance and saying... "Shit mother fucker, you got better form than I did on the cross." Slowly turning downward, head first, gaining speed, tears streaming from the blasts of air, thoughts fading, sky diving, nothing to stop you except the jagged earth below. Arms now slipping over your head, diving position, legs together, full speed ahead, perfect form, difficulty level 4.6, ground getting closer, eyes start to open, and just an inch before your hit, you wake up and say... "Fuck that I need to spank it one more time."

There is no moral to what you have read, it was utter nonsense spouted off from my head. Just odd things, really anything that came to mind. Anyway, the buffalo steak was good. I think if I was going to die eating a buffalo steak though, it would have to be with this light classical music playing, and just as I take the last bite, I turn my head all slow motion like, and De Niro comes around the corner with a Tommy gun and just unloads bullet after bullet into my ecstasy filled body. What the fuck is wrong with me.- Return to the top


 

Lies, Deception, Attempted Murder

 

A while ago I met this girl online named Annalis. I thought at first that she was a great person, but just as I had these feelings, her true self took shape. The first couple nights she would stay overnight, but than after that she came up with excuses and told me how she had a hard time sleeping at other peoples houses. I noticed she would often race to the cell phone and step away to talk on it, always saying it was her sister checking up on her. Things seemed fishy and when I get that feeling, being fucked over is always around the corner. But I had know idea what fucked over was until this girl came around.

I began to go over to her apartment to hang out. She had told me she lived with her sister, brother in law Jason, and her sisters two kids. I would always cross paths with her brother in-law, and always saw her kids. Her sister however I had never seen. She would always say how her sister was so cynical about people, and how she would be so degrading to me if she didn't approve of me dating her. So I just let it go at that and never saw her. It always made me very curious as to why she showed such lack of affection towards me when we were at her apartment. Her explanation was how that is just the kind of family she was raised in. Things like affection no matter how mild just are not shown except behind closed doors. Well that kind of sucked because I am the kind of guy that starves for the little things, in public or not, but oh well I let it be how she wanted it around certain people.

I noticed one night looking at her while she laid in my bed, a faint scarring across her stomach, almost the mark that would be left after someone has had kids, but she told me she never has had any. She informed me that it was from a period of weight gain and loss. Again I left it at what she told me it was. She was also a cutter. I now began to play stupid, because even though I will never say I will trust a girl 100 percent in my lifetime, I still wanted to see if by chance I was being paranoid. Honestly I should have known better since my gut feelings or spidey sense has been correct about 100 percent of the time when it came to worthless lying whores.

So here I am to try to trust an untrustable person. After going out with her for a couple weeks she would brag at how great it was going to be to go see her family in Wisconsin, and she told me the days she was going to leave and get back. Then a few days before she left I asked her how long she was going for, and she had changed the dates when she told me the second time. Now I had ample reasons to start thinking how fucked up things seemed. Especially the time she sent me various sexy photos and upon looking at the info or details on the photo, it was marked with the date of the same night she gave them too me. I questioned her about it and she said I was freaking out and crazy. When in reality even without proof I knew better. Someone had taken them for her that same night.

So off she goes on her trip to Wisconsin, and she assures me she will call me there. Well, it never happened. I waited about a week and called her and she answered. I asked her if she thought it was unusual to not talk to a person you are suppose to really like for a week, not even to say a simple hello. Especially at the beginning of a relationship. She said she didn't think it was a big deal which puzzled me. I remember trying to break myself off with her before she had left, and she freaked out saying how bad she wanted me around. So with that said I stuck it out.

Anyway, she had told me she was coming home, when in reality she was at her apartment for 3 days prior. How do I know? Let me tell you. I decided to play detective, and made up a profile of someone false. I wrote her saying how I had an interest in her profile and asked how she's doing and blah blah. She replied saying she was great and how she got home a few days ago from seeing her family in Wisconsin. However when I spoke to her in my own person on the telephone she was saying how she was sitting at her uncles computer in Wisconsin, making up elaborate lies of the family that was around her. So upon getting this information that she was "home" I wanted to make sure she was not referring to her uncles home in Wisconsin but her actual apartment here in Michigan. So I take my truck to my parents, borrow the parental units car, throw on some dim shades and a baseball cap and my journey to her apartment commenced. As I arrived I drove past slowly noticing all the lights were on including the small patio light. Sure enough she was home. What did I have to do to bust her?

I called her and told how I have some friends around that look out for one another, and how her car was seen with her in it, even though it was sealed off in the garage, so technically I could not say she was home, because I didn't actually see her or the car. But I told her my friends had seen her in her car, and that all her lights were on in her home. Sure enough she breaks down and cries, which is followed by freaking out. She said she wanted time alone and I told her all she had to do was tell me. I told her its not right to lie and make up such elaborate stories of where she is at. She followed up by saying that its a normal part of a relationship, and that is to lie. Lying is a part of a relationship. Sad to say most of the pieces of shit walking the earth make it that way, however it doesn't make it right, and it's a piss poor excuse to do it yourself.

This person I had made up also attained information that Annalis had plans to break up with me a "few days back", so I confronted her about this, saying "if you planned this then why the fuck didn't you let me go when I wanted out". She would tell me because she is very flipid with her feelings and she goes back and fourth. Which is bullshit, she just wanted to get to know someone else and take her bisexuality on a test drive, while keeping me for one of her other personalities.

So after all this madness I ended up going to her apartment after not seeing her for like 2 weeks. She claimed to be a good little Christian, her daddy is even a pastor. She wanted me to read a book about letting go of the past, written by some bible thumping faggot preacher. She thought that I had a problem allowing my past relationships to cause distrust for new ones. How ironic. Forgive me for smashing this religion but holy Jesus fucking Christ is this religion used in the worst of ways these days. She told me she was wrong to lie, but more importantly I need to learn forgiveness, and she said I also had an ego problem, simply for telling her the basic principles of right and wrong. All said and done, it was time for things to end.

Now we fast forward perhaps a week after it's over. I always thought deep down, what if those two kids she lived with are hers. What if Jason her brother in-law was actually her husband? I then thought that there is no fucking way she could have manufactured such a life of madness with me in it. But, she did.

She told me her name was Annalis Wallschlaeger. However a few months later after we stopped seeing each other I found her name was actually Annalis Ciluffo. Now before you go and type that second name into the Google search engine which of course brings up the best results, allow me to enlighten you all. In case you happen to cross the path of a manipulative pathological liar that suffers from schizophrenia, allow me to tell you this for your own safety. For one, in all honesty I do feel bad for her. I do understand that with some types of mental illness it may be impossible for one to function properly upstairs. I do also know that I was burned bad, and made to look a fool. I also write this in hopes to protect people in case they themselves cross the path of a dangerous person. One in which does not understand the difference between the truth and a lie, or good and evil. A person that should not be allowed to have children, as I do fear for them.

I remember after it was over with her, that I told my friends this. I would not be surprised if this girl was the kind of girl that would slam an ice pick through your chest while your sleeping. Guess what. I wasn't far off.

I took her real name and looked her up. What I found was something disturbing. I may have gotten fucked over yet I will get my turn in. I have just placed the icing on the cake. I am also glad that I currently pack a 410, and a .38 not because I like to go shooting, but for that extra comfort when it comes to crossing paths with someone you never would fathom meeting in your lifetime.

The brother in law was actually her husband, and the two kids are also hers. I crossed paths with this guy, and I think he thought all along I was only Anna's friend. Which is also why she never showed affection around me. She would never show any around him either.

This person is the most compulsive liar I have ever known, She does not know how to tell the truth. It's scary. She would lie about trivial things that are abnormal to lie about. Things that don't even make sense. I should have taken her serious when she said her parents have her seeing a shrink.

Now what you will read next is quite disturbing. I write this so others don't fall victim to the same lies and deception as I have, or perhaps just a victim to a dangerous person, due to her mental illness. This was in the Grand Rapids, Michigan Press and was also covered by news 13 back in 2004.

You may not find this full story through a search engine, I actually purchased this Grand Rapids Michigan Press article from their website, in order to get the full story and article instead of just bits and pieces.

Copyright Grand Rapids Press Aug 21, 2004
PLAINFIELD TWP. -- The caller's name did not sound familiar. She told Rebecca Nesbitt they were former classmates at Wayland Union High School -- she had left the area, moved back and wanted to make friends.

It sounded strange, but Anna seemed so nice. Still, Nesbitt, 21, could not place her. After several telephone calls, they decided to see a movie at Studio 28 -- a public place where Nesbitt felt safe.

Just before she was to leave, Anna called. She needed a ride because she was without her car. Nesbitt went to the woman's Plainfield Township apartment, where they chatted in the living room before Anna got up.

Moments later, a claw hammer slammed into the back of Nesbitt's head. She was hit four or five times, and knocked to the ground. She cut her hand smashing a window to call for help. She finally forced her way out.

Only at the hospital did Nesbitt find out Anna's identity: Annalis Ciluffo, a 22-year-old mother of two who had married Nesbitt's high-school boyfriend, Jason.

"I'm thinking, 'What?' " Nesbitt said Friday.

Kent County sheriff's detectives say Ciluffo targeted Nesbitt because of a relationship Nesbitt had with Jason Ciluffo during their senior year in 2001.

Investigators told Nesbitt that the suspect was "emotionally distraught over our past relationship," she said.

On Friday, Rockford District Judge Steven Servaas postponed Annalis Ciluffo's preliminary examination and ordered her to undergo a competency evaluation at the request of her attorney, David Kaczor.

She is charged with assault with intent to murder, a potential life offense, in the Aug. 5 incident.

Kaczor said Ciluffo's troubles played a part in the alleged attack. Court records showed she suffered from schizophrenia. She told her attorney she was not taking her medication when the incident occurred, and has multiple personalities.

She does not remember the attack, Kaczor said after the brief hearing.

Nesbitt, who suffered a concussion and needed 14 stitches to close the gash on her hand, cannot make sense of it.

She lives in Caledonia, and was not aware that her old boyfriend was married and living in the area. They dated only six months, and she had long since moved on.

Nesbitt attends Baker College in Muskegon, volunteers at Bethany Christian Services and has had a book published, "Voice with no Choice," about two boys kidnapped by their mother before they were reunited with their father.

She could not have imagined a plot like this, she said.

She said the defendant, using her maiden name, stopped by Nesbitt's mother's house in July, saying she was a friend who just moved back to town. Her mother, Kathy, felt bad she put the two in touch, but her daughter said she had no way of knowing what would happen.

When she first spoke to the young woman, and didn't recognize her, Nesbitt thought: "OK, maybe if she didn't go to Wayland long, and I just don't remember ... In Wayland, we had 200 kids."

Ciluffo moved to Kent County about a year and a half ago; she had previously lived in Wisconsin and Spring Arbor, near Jackson, according to court records.

Nesbitt said Anna was "really, really sweet." Still, she kept her guard up, and suggested public places to meet. But when Anna needed a ride, Nesbitt said she would pick her up.

Once the attack started, Nesbitt just wanted to save her life.

"The first blow kind of took me by surprise, but the second one scared ... me. It looked like she was going to kill me. I felt like I was in a movie, one of those drama movies. (I wondered) 'Why is she doing this?' "

Nesbitt smashed the window and screamed. She tried to get out, but the door was locked and Ciluffo blocked the door. Eventually, Nesbitt forced her way through, with the defendant's arms wrapped around her waist, and unlocked the door to get out, police said in court records.

Two witnesses saw Ciluffo with the hammer, records showed.

During the attack, Ciluffo allegedly told Nesbitt: "Don't struggle, it'll be so much easier that way." Later, Nesbitt said, Ciluffo begged her to come back because "she said I needed to understand something."

Now, Nesbitt said: "I'm just glad I made it through OK. I've got a really strong support system. A lot of family."

Ciluffo is free on $50,000 bond, and cannot have contact with the victim.
 

 




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